Whoops! Where’s my faith?

Bible and Rosary

Thanks be to God for the timing of the Gospel reading today- the story where Jesus calms a storm at sea:

A violent squall came up and waves were breaking over the boat,
so that it was already filling up.
Jesus was in the stern, asleep on a cushion.
They woke him and said to him,
“Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?”
He woke up,
rebuked the wind,
and said to the sea, “Quiet! Be still!”
The wind ceased and there was great calm.

I have been anxious the past three few days as my life circumstances feel like a squall – ready to sink me.  Between the mixed messages I get from my employer, a difficult bout of illness within my family, and my own addition of fear of the unknown, I am a wreck.

Not coincidentally, my anxiety is heightened as I rescheduled my morning routine of prayer, reading scriptures and reflection for the past three days.  I hope to better remember the advice of St. Francis De Sales who wrote: “Do not lose your inward peace for anything whatsoever, even if your whole world seems upset.”

Today, I feel like the disciples who were terrified in the boat when I should be asleep peacefully, like Jesus who had faith:

Then he asked them, “Why are you terrified?
Do you not yet have faith?”

No, Jesus.  I do not have (enough) faith today.  I am too busy thinking “I have to shoulder all of my burdens today,”  instead of offering them to you as a sacrifice.

Thanks be to God for your grace and mercy.  I pray for those throughout the world who need much more than I.

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Today we remember Saint Thomas Aquinas - priest and doctor of the Church, patron of all universities and of students.

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